Friday, March 18, 2016
I struggled with whether I even felt like writing this. Contemplated just deleting the blog all together. Just having a crap week really. The IUI failed... leave it to me to get my hopes up. It really is hard when so many people around me are getting pregnant & here I am still having problems & still so sad that I lost a baby last year. I don't know what happens now. I don't know if we'll try an IUI again or try anything else. Everything is just a huge uncertainty. I'm happy for my friends who are pregnant & getting pregnant but I am also sad because I feel like I'm just over here treading water. I know God has a plan but sometimes it'd be nice to see a little sign.
Thursday, March 3, 2016
Well Tuesday I had my much anticipated IUI. Was totally terrified & totally nervous. Total over reaction (imagine that! Lol). It wasn't too bad. It was awkward but not painful like I feared. The pain came after but it wasn't too unbearable. Just very uncomfortable.
Now we wait. We should know in a week or two whether or not it worked. Praying it did but I know it's all up to the good Lord. I may go crazy waiting though. Lol.